Its okey

 I feel kinda good today.. I looked in the mirror this morning and thought "well, it aint perfekt, but its okey". 

I have always had issues with my appearance, I dont know why, I guess I've just never really felt pretty. I'm fine with my heart, I know who I am, and what I stand for, I am a loving person, I just wished I would love me too.

I wish I was taller, longer legs and better proportional put together, but my ass is to big and my legs are to small, these are the cards I have been dealt.

But today its okey, and okey is good for me, I usually feel ugly. Im not proud to admit that, I wish I was this strong independent woman who has great confidence in herself, but I have never been a lier.

I always feel to fat, even when Im not, why does it have to be this way? Damn I just hate myself some times. People tell me Im beautiful, but I dont really believe it, they must be lying. But how I want to believe though.

I need to learn how to be content, thats the key. Maybe someday. But for now, its okey.

Im broken inside, I know that, I have accepted that, but there is something beautiful about that. Broken people who keep going, keep lovin on others, thats another level of beautiful. 

Thank God, no one broke my heart so much that it stopped working, but dear Lord how they tried! 

I guess I am beautiful, a beautiful mind is better than a pretty face. Maybe I have both, I dont know, it doesnt matter, my heart is more worth than my face. Beauty fades, but hearts grow.

Stay pretty inside my fellow wierdo's.