My mind is messing with me

 I feel tired today, the past keeps haunting me. It is not fair. Can I get a break from me? I feel lost sometimes, lost in my own univers, not in the reel world. I wish people would join me in my mind, see the beautiful kaos. 

Can you see me? The reel me, Im here, but not really. How can I ever explain it to you? That is the sad truth. 

But listen up, it is not all bad, the thing is... I can see you, my past makes me better accomplished to see your pain, I can look into your eyes and really see you, and that aint all bad.

I can help you better than I can help myself. It is my purpose in life, just to help. What the world needs today is not some kind of superhero, it needs broken people to see other broken people and help, we understand you, and what people need the most is often to be understood, not to get useless pointers like "just be positive". No, dont do that, it isent enough, you need to be understood and then be helped. 

Stop talking and listen! 

Join my mindset, I really wish you would, that is were true beauty begins, when you can see me and I can see you. I dream of that day.

Im not perfect, I make mistakes and that is okey, im not wonder woman and I dont wish to be, I only wish to be me.

I am nuts! I know this, I cant change it, I tried so often in my past, it doesnt work! It has tared me apart so many times? Lets just me who we are, like its suppose to be. 

My past is heartbreaking, it is rough, unfair in so many ways , but I keep going, though sometimes I get these flashbacks "posttraumatisk stress". I cant escape it, it is a part of me, I have accepted that. We all need to be less hard on ourselves.

One day at a time, that is how I live my life, it is the only way to live if you ask me.

I hope you somehow found this helpfull, after all, that is my goul with this. 

Stay true to yourself and remember that you are exactly what you need to be, dont try to be anything else.