The truth is the only way

 When I made this blog, I thought about what I would say, i thought about everything, but in the end, the only way forward is to face your demons and then let it go. But it is painful, the truth is painful, but the past will ruin you if you dont face it head on.

So this is my confession, I am not a kriminel, its not that kind of confession, it is my truth.

Life is hard, it is even harder if you meet the wrong kind of people in your life, and I deffenitly did. I dont know if I attracted the wrong crowd or something, but there they were, time after time. Some of them were wearing masks, I didn't know what was behind. What is there to learn from this?

My ears and eyes or more open than before, there are some signs I see clearer than before, but you never quite know what is hiding behind the masks if they are really good to hide there bad parts that will tear you down.

It is hard to know what to do. Should you stop trying to find love? I dont know, that I what I have chosen, unless I find a man who will show me his truth, whit out a mask, if he is kind, loving, not selfish and cruel.

Im not counting on love, love is a losers game for me, I cant win. 

I see myself, see the past, it still haunts me, people have wrongd me, in the worst kind of way. I want to be free from my past, but it wont let me. 

I dont want to be a victim, I wnt to be a survivor and deep down, I know I am, I know they have not taken my heart, they stepped on me, broke my heart, broke my spiret, but they did not take my heart, my heart is still mine, it still beats in its own beautiful way.

I just want to help people, especially people like me, people who are broken, people who have ghosts that haunts then. I want to wake then op, see the beauty inside, make them see that they are not to blame for their pain. There is so much love if people just help each other, of that I am sure.